Sunday, November 20, 2005

todays poems in progress

The last one needs major editing re-writing..the others I will look at later to see what should or could not be done.

My new dawn
has turned into
dust in my mouth.
There is no phoenix
rising from these ashes.
Only a final death
of dreams.
......................


I held the line
And thought
that this was my answer
Only to find
That this was to become
the final resting place
of any sense of self
as someone
to treasure.
.............................

I reached for sunlight
glinting on a golden ring
of supposed truths
I seemed
To be guided
To a place of wondrous
Self creation
It works!
in part...
and then
It floats away
on wings of necessity.
......................................

Broken Toy

once loved
Many times valued
too broken now
To be cherished
In the night
Only fit
to be tucked away
in a forgotten
pocket of living.
......................

What do you do
When faith is not enough
To carry you through
When the inner flame
of spirituality
dims and sputter
in the darkness
of realization
too long delayed
When loving
Proved not enough
And seeking
produces no finds
Where do you go
When prayers remain unanswered
and only nightmares
accompany your nights
creation halted
halfway.
No return and no rewards
only the paths
you scorned
so long
as not good enough
How did you find
yourself here.
Not blind...painfully aware
of all the dreams you lack.
and no way
To find.

 

 

Saturday, September 24, 2005

after the storm

Am in Phoenix .... part of the great diaspora caused by hurricane Katrina. It will be interesting to see what effects this has on all the hosting cities absorbing people with a different way. Even if there is none...that in itself tells a tale.

 Phoenix is surprisingly beautiful in a sharp edged spare way. Am still entranced by the visuals from my son's balcony ....especially right after sunset when it resembles the clear tones of a children's story book. The dry climate allows even overpasses to be made into works of art, designs etched or molded into the stone. No worries about erosion from rain.

 The bag of Tostitos that my son left open ....4 days later the chips still were crispy and fresh tasting. Every little strip mall has a water shop. And I, used to walking 4-6 miles on a park track in water-rich lush Louisiana, can understand why... when after only 5 blocks walk am lagging until I stop to drink or get a shaved ice.

 Am of two minds about relocating here. There is no water. And I am a huge water person. It calls to me as does the lush foliage where water is abundant. Am wondering if the stark beauty of the xeri gardenng and clear tableaus can make up for it's lack.

 

 

Thursday, July 14, 2005

poem

Wanderer

 

 

I have been alone in the cold….

So long

When will it end?

I see not even any light in

The distance

No call to home

I struggle and shiver on the road

To nowhere

A perpetual wanderer... lost

Picking myself up

After each fall

Desperately longing for ...

Shelter and love

In arms that never seem to come.

Monday, June 20, 2005

veil

Flipping through TV channels ran across two separate real life cop scenes, one law and order and then ...then Indiana Jones. All depicting people being taken in. The real life knocking you in the face with the real tragedy desperation and desire for freedom of the captee and the disgust/fear and effort of the policemen. Law and Order making a real attempt to approximate that and Indiana Jones where all was elegantly action.

 And that is the key word...elegance. Even Law and Order attempting to approximate real had the buffer of elegance. The desperation is not real the sweat is from lights and the dirt from a make up person..somehow comes through.

 I wonder in this age of TV and movies how much is hard to relate to because we expect life to have the veil of elegance..the buffer of staging to make everything more graceful.

 I think its a good thing. It may help prevent more mental poisoning than hinder true connection. Connection is innate to man. Will happen if we allow it at all. And the veil of elegance ..the buffer of staging helps keep us from connecting and attracting desperate and less productive worlds via the media.

Musing

Musing

Saturday, June 18, 2005

modern terms

I have been struck lately, usually with a good deal of amusement, at the terms we now run into and use daily. Ever notice them?

When I wish to do something on many of the web pages I click a button that says "submit" grin...the funny thought thre is at all those dominant manly types doing hte same thing without thought.

 When I use a credit or debit card (which is almost every purchase) I am "accepted". Smiles..that is always uplifting to hear. We all want acceptance. But when the charge won't go through we are NEVER rejected...THE TRANSACTION is declined. A word with much more gentleness and connotations that are more temporary.

 I call and get put on "hold"...bringing back childhood memories of "you'll just have to hold it until the next gas station" but now, since so many companies have web pages we are offered the choice to hold it or to go to the web page and submit. Grin...who says business doesn't have the upper hand?

But all is not lost...when we start to feel too disempowered we can go buy something and once more be validated because we will be accepted. ;-)

Am keeping my eyes open for other amusing daily life terms with embedded concepts  that may be escaping us.

 

Niters

Monday, May 23, 2005

Starting

This is the beginning. Four simple words and something new is created. Just what that is will have to be revealed another time.